2011

pejam mata, buka mata. now we're in december.

within weeks, we'll say hello 2012 goodbye 2011.

apparently 11 will always be my favourite number.

on top of that 2011 I would say is the most challenging, full of surprises,

full of despair and happiness year.

early january, me and my family was still in shocking mode, where my aunt Mak Tam died of cancer on December 2010. not much of happiness, i was quite busy handling my master thesis,

entitled Database of Cemetery.. which kindda all related to death. did my survey job at the cemetery..

my mind was actually looking inside the graves, thinking bout death. 

yet january also give me a surprise when i was called for the job interview by JPA. grateful, yet i'm still blurry

bout what i should become. 

april would be the busiest month in 2011. i haven't finished my master's yet then JPA offered me the job. i praised to ALLAH, felt thankful for all the blessing's i received. i went to part time mode, struggle between classes, assignments final thesis and dissertation while still working. untill now i still cant or do not know how i did it. i guess when we pushed ourself really hard, we can never expect how far we can be.alhamdulliah again.

months goes by, and on june alhamdulillah all of my family went to Mecca and Medina to perform umrah.

one of experience, that i can never ever expect the magical there when i was standing in front of Kaabah.

feeling so small, so tiny in front of ALLAH'S almighty power. witnessing the Tanah Haram, visiting the Makam of Nabi Muhamad S.A.W made me speechless. no words can describe how peaceful we are there.

to all my friends out there, to know and learn to love our prophet Nabi Muhammad S.A.W u should go and visit his makam. honeslty u will feel much closer to him, the most greatest human ALLAH has made.

between july, august and september i attended so many weedings for this year. i went to kelantan twice for ain and che an's wedding. went to pasir gudang for my bestie's wedidng ikhwani and a few friends around kl.

i'm happy and always thrilled to be with my stfians friends. we always laugh so loudly, tease each other. and yes stf spirit is always with us. glad to be part of them.

as the shiny full of happiness months comes by, then suddenly rainy weather came to my life. being test about relationship by ALLAH have always been in my life for the last 4-5 years. i ended my relationship with mr. sincere, after 2 years we've been together. saying out loud here is not something i would like to do. but hearing all the rumours bad about me, making me feel worst about myself. only i, myself knows why we both break up. some people are lucky to get married (jodoh panjang) and some people like me, mybe this is the end of us.

enuff about pain and heartbreak.when i say enuf is enuf. i would rather jump out of the relationship and be happy with my family, friends and work. everything happened for a reason, and the most important of all, it's ALLAH's fate.

and so now december come by with a lot of hope, a lot of courage and love. i wish 2012 i would be a better person insya ALLAH.